Have you ever broken down events by time before? Example, this week my friend Wayne and I realized this month we’ve known each other 30 years. That’s alot of years. So I started thinking about what I said yesterday about listening to my body and being stubborn. I’ve been stubborn lately in that I thought I would be more “recovered” or “back to normal” working speed wise…body appearance wise. I thought I would be completely caught up work wise and be a size 2 by now. But I’m not. So I broke down how long I’ve been home.
I was discharged from my transplant on Dec 31st so I’m on month 8 from that major discharge.
However, I’ve spent a total of 5 weeks during those 7 ish months (Since it’s only August 8th) back in and out of the hospital.
So I’ve been “unhospitalized” a total of 6 months
Of those 6 months 3 of them I’ve been back to work
So I need to probably lay off myself on my regarding not catching up to everyone else in my PhD cohort faster…or body shaming myself for feeling fat.
I have a feeling this stubbornness lesson is doomed to always be a re-occurring struggle in my life
So I’m watching an HBO documentary while working called “Tales from the Organ Trade”. It’s really scary and makes me feel so very blessed and baffled that I got an organ as fast as I did. The faults in organ allocation are a real issue and needs to be reevaluated in our country. I highly recommend watching it if you have access to it.